Sunday, April 11, 2010
I'm in college now, the most independent years of my life, my prime years. It's pretty damn safe to say that I'm nearing the peak of my youth. In a few more years I'll be working my career and I'll be looking for someone to marry, --> in a few more years. Sure I still go out to eat and hang out with my friends but never before in my life have I ever worked so much and had so much on my mind. Not only do I have more "actual real" responsibilities but I also perceive things differently. When I was in high school, like in my sophomore and junior years, school and the friends I made in school were my whole world. If I were to picture it in my mind it would be me stuck in a globe surrounded by images, memories, and friends- on the top of a mountain. Now I visualize my world as me standing over a cliff, my memories of high school and my friends are behind me, and a massive valley of nothingness is in front of me. I take a step out over the cliff, and the cliff expands with new memories made, new ideals, new values, and different morals. I look over my shoulder and say "So High School is over eh?"
"How shocked should I be when someone gives me 'Shocking News'?". Some people in school obviously embraced drama and some others began creating their pretentious images. I always just sat in the back and asked why? Of course I never made any of that known to anyone, if I started ranting wouldn't that make me another one of those pretentious fools? So I just kept it to myself, which was good, it helped me see whats important and what isn't. If only I found the energy to study lol.
And so I graduated... Picked up smoking and quit since it caused problems for me when I worked out. IMO smoking really is just a social thing to do rather than something to enjoy- at least until you're hooked. But ya, I was free of all those questions I had in High School, I didn't even keep a High School Year Book I didn't want any of those memories to drag me down on my way up to success. One of the greatest realizations I made after High School was how big the world really was. After traveling to Vietnam, walking down the poor streets, I think the problems kids have their are far greater than ours. They have greater obstacles to climb in order to reach their dreams, unlike here in America.
Other than looking at things that way I noticed that things around me are changing. For one thing is the respect I get lol. One time I was looking for my little brother at school. I spotted some of his friends which are probably around the age of 15 - 16, and they talked to me.. really politely. It's like how a underclassman would talk to his senpai in Japan. I was really surprised, when I was at that age no one talked to me in a polite formal tone, it was always the friendly informal one like you would have in a normal conversation. But they talked to me like I was a teacher almost o.o That wasn't the only time I've had High Schoolers speaking politely to me, even with some underclassman I knew were pretty formal, unless of course if I joked around with them. But if it was a proper conversation they'd be pretty attentive. Even adults put me on the same level as them in a conversation. In high school you could get the feeling when an adult would talk "down" to you. Now I talk on par with them. It feels very normal when you don't think about it, but when I realized it I was kinda taken aback.